~ Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving, Pete Walker, pg141
(Source: thetwistedrope)
“You never apologized to me for hurting me, but I apologized to you 12 times for being angry about it.”
note to self: ur mental health is extremely important. don’t wait until things get extremely bad to seek help. pay attention to all the warning signs that something isn’t right. if u feel like ur mental health is declining or u are noticing that u feel worse, don’t think ‘things will get better. i have to just wait it out.’ yes things will get better but u need to take action for things to get better. don’t be embarrassed or ashamed to ask for help. be completely honest and truthful. no one can help u if u don’t communicate that there’s something wrong. there’s still a lot of stigma surrounding mental illness. some people will use the fact that someone has a mental illness to discredit them or invalidate their thoughts or opinions or paint them as being ‘disillusioned with reality’ but don’t wait until it gets extreme for u to seek help, do it now. do it as soon as u possibly can. don’t procrastinate. don’t put it off. leaving a mental illness untreated is just as bad as leaving a physical ailment untreated. please take this seriously. this is ur life. no one can help u if u don’t acknowledge that there’s something wrong. i know u feel like giving up. i know u feel exhausted. i know u don’t feel like trying anymore but please don’t give up on urself. please. u feel lost and u don’t know how to gain control of ur life right now but please ask for help and don’t give up. i know u feel like a burden on those around u and u feel like everyone would be better off without u here but that’s not true. u do have a purpose in this life. that’s why u are alive and u are breathing right now. everyday is another chance to turn things around. please take advantage of these opportunities to do so. u feel like ur judgment is clouded. u feel trapped. ur broke. u have no idea what the fuck u want to do with ur life. u feel stuck. u feel like everyone has their shit together but u. u feel like everyone has the secret to being successful and being normal and u feel left out. u feel like everyone is in on it but u. i know ur tired and ur burnt out. ur stressed. u feel like u can’t possibly go on anymore but please fight for urself. fight for ur life. don’t let this destroy u. i can’t wait to see u move past this. i can’t wait to see things get better for u. i can’t wait until ur able to tell ur future children about this difficult time in ur life. i can’t wait to see u gain control of ur life again. ur not ugly. ur not useless. ur not worthless. ur not stupid. ur not inadequate. ur not any of those things.
